Struggling

This week has been a hard one, and it’s only Wednesday! It’s not that anything major has happened but a cloud has lingered over me putting me in a foul mood. I really struggle sometimes to see past the moment and have faith in the future, I know what Iwant and I want it now!

I want to pay my debt off now and have a life!

I want to be slim and healthy.

I want to be able to juggle all the balls in my life and not get stressed out.

I want to be a better parent and calm down.

I want happiness, laughter, faith and security.

 

My brother told me this week that he thinks I suck at life and it hurt because I know that no matter how hard I work, how much I do everyone looks down on me and thanks the heavens that they are not me 😦

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Meal Planning

Recently I have suffered from lots of small ailments, basically allergies, skin conditions, tiredness and sluggishness, which together make me feel like utter cack but do not register as worth my GP’s time when I go in and complain about it all. Frustrated with the lack of help from the doctor and also filled with a deep desire to want to feel better and look better, I have been reading more and more about vegan and whole plant-based lifestyles. There have been a couple of blogs/Instagram accounts in particular which I have fallen head over heels in love with and have made the whole prospect of drastically overhauling my diet seem like an exciting opportunity and not something to kick and scream about.

Now, in typical me fashion (remember I’m the tortoise in this race we call life, and not the hare) these changes have been small and gradual. In fact these small and gradual changes are still in their infancy, and this is because I want to ensure that this change sticks around long enough for it to become a life habit and not just a fad diet. I have started by downloading recipes from these sites that seem the most appealing and also going out and purchasing my first ever vegan cookbook , ‘Oh She Glows’.

With printed recipes in hand and the beautiful ‘Oh She Glows’ book, I began writing a meal plan for the week ahead with the aim to incorporate a few plant-based recipes into my week.  Below is a very blurry shot of the finished product….

 

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Now I have actually been doing this over the last few weeks already but this is the first week with mostly vege recipes on my meal planner.

I have found that creating a recipe folder has really helped me with my meal plans and trying out new ideas. I am obsessed with online blogs and Pinterest. There is an endless supply of healthy tips online and recipes, which means that in a way it is easy to try new things and find healthy alternatives to your favourite meals. I periodically print out the recipes which catch my eye and that I would like to try. I then put them all in a big A4 file, which is divided into sections (breakfast, snacks, mains, soups, desserts – the usual divide). Every two weeks I then head to my folder and create a weekly plan based on the meals I most fancy.

However despite looking like I know my shit, I am still a little leaguer in the game of mean planning. Things I need to work on are budgeting better, following through on all meals on my planner (mid-week I tend to run out of cooking from scratch steam and go for easy options), and batch cooking/food prepping. Any tips out there on how to improve?

 

One week down….

…and how are my good intentions doing?

Finances – despite paying off some debts I find myself still squeezed with money and at times the road ahead looks long and depressing. It is hard to keep my spirits up when I look at the reality of my situation in the cold light of day. However I got myself into this mess and I will get myself out, no matter how hard it may be at times. With a hen do just over and another wedding looming on the horizon, it’s more important than ever that I keep my spending in check and don’t screw myself over for the month.

Health – Eating wise I haven’t been too bad although as the week has gone on I have noticed that I’ve become lazier and lazier with healthy eating prep and am relying more and more of convience. Also at the hen do I ate and drank to my own delight, which spelled absolute disaster as my weight has been creeping up. I have also totally slipped on the exercise side. I have done 2 x 40 mins walk but I really want to be working out 5 x week. This next week coming I will try and focus on this and make it more of a priority.

Flat – with my brother staying over, my tiny flat is in chaos and a disaster zone. Getting on top of the cleaning and starting to focus on clearing through the boxes will help me feel more in control.

Vital stats @ 28thApril

Weight: 10st 10lbs 😦 wtf??!!

Doing it right..

So it’s been a while since I wrote on here and that has mainly been done to a lack of want and also being busy. Although I have made headway in some areas of my life, I still find myself slipping down in others. So I want to make myself focus more and really get down to making these changes in my life, and I want to do that through daily blogging. I hope that by writing my thoughts down and also my goals that it will help keep them at the forefront of my mind and inspire me to keep on going.

So I’m going to start with a vital stats of sorts on the 3 areas I wanted to improve this year – money, health and home.

Money

So where I currently stand with the debt is:

Barclay credit card – £6000

M & S credit card – £4400

Argos account – £600

Very account -£400

Argos Loan – £1500

Natwest Loan – £5900

Although I did manage to pay off and close my Natwest credit card and car loan (which were my goals for 2014! 🙂 ) I have also managed to increase some of my other debts! 😦 So the new goals I am setting myself for the rest of 2014 are:

Pay off and close Very account

Pay off and close Argos loan account

Save £100 monthly into a savings account (in order to ensure I have a back-up for emergencies)

 

Health

Vital stats

Weight: 10st 6.6lbs

Dress size: 10-12

I keep making promises to myself to do more exercise and eat healthier, and  I often start for a while before good intentions fall to the wayside. This time I hope that by blogging daily and recording what I am eating and doing activity wise I will be inspired to continue. Most of my daily blogs will concern my attempt at eating healthy and trying to fit exercise in to a busy life.

My main aim here is to be active on a daily basis and also be inspired by a more vegetarian/vegan philiosophy when it comes to food. I cannot say that I will totally convert but I do want to focus on a much more cleaner way of eating. This I find hard at the moment due to lack of funds, lack of time to prepare food and also getting my little boy to eat the same so it will be interesting to see how I go and what difficulties I face along the way.

 

Home 

My main aim this year is to try and finish the flat. I don’t have much left to do but lack of funds is slowing me down. My aim is to create a home I love and buy things that are of quality and not just to fill a hole.

 

So here’s hoping that I can stick to what I set to achive 🙂

Post Christmas blues

Belly wobbling, house trashed, money all spent….oh oh! I find myself in old familiar and frustrating territory.  2014 must be a year in which I try and stay on track at all times, and don’t come off the rails and de-rail all my goals at once. How else do other people keep on track? How do I stay in control at all times?

I must put a better action plan into place.